Monday, November 7, 2011

11/7/11

Monday, November 7, 2011
Making family time is important to me. How do you balance your children, relationship, and work life?

Well, all of us know - it's not easy! Most of you know I've been doing it on my own for the past 16 years, which adds another layer of "tough" to the works. I know how much I've had to do, and sacrifice, to do it for ONE child. I'm completely in awe of those single mothers who have more than one. They are my heroes.

All I can really say is that my child and my family have always come first. Always. I have, at some point, told every one of my bosses, "I am a mother first, and a teacher second, and I will never apologize for that."

Most of us, I think, somehow just figure it out as we go along. I think we just "do" it, and don't really stop to think about it. At least in my case, I know that if I had stopped to think about how crazy my life was, I probably would have just froze with fear, and then nothing would have gotten done. Some of you will remember that not too long ago, I was working 2 jobs and going to graduate school, while raising my son. Once I graduated, I took on a 3rd job, mostly because I then had tuition to pay for my son's private school.

Thankfully, since then, things have slowed down a bit for me. More than you guys even know. (I know, I know, I still owe you a post. I'm an assbag.) That being said, I have a whole host of new things causing me stress in my life right now. Truthfully, I feel more stressed now then when I was working 3 jobs. I just take it one day at a time these days, and try to go with the flow. What else can I do really?

Little side note - I will be going for a stress test on Saturday. I probably should have done it years ago. Whatever, I'm doing it now. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little nervous. Part of that nervousness stems from the fact that my aunt had her first stress done when she was just 2 years older than I am now, and less than a minute into it, she coded and dropped dead right on the treadmill. Thankfully, they were able to shock her back to life. And, thank God, she was having the test done at the hospital, as opposed to at her doctor's office, so she was able to get immediate treatment. However, it turned out that treatment was a quadruple bi-pass surgery. Yeah...not how I'm hoping MY test goes. Feel free to put out some positive vibes, good thoughts, prayers, whatever you have to give, for me this Saturday.

I don't want to end on a negative note, so let me just say, there are also lots of great things that are happening around here, too, that are making me very happy. Let me just say this - Good or bad, there's never a dull moment around here.

8 comments:

karen gerstenberger said...

I think it's good that you're having the test, Chi. If you need some help or a "health adjustment," then you will know and can get it. I"m sorry about your aunt's story - that would make me nervous, too - but better to know, especially if it runs in the family, yes?
Sending you LOTS of positive thoughts!

M said...

Ohhhhhh...oh! Good luck- you will do well and stop stressing and take a Calgon right now!
Happy Monday- you'll do fine!

When I think back to kids and traveling a great distance to work each day...I really don't know how I did it. Crazy- if I did it over I wouldn't have worked when my kids were little and ate beans and rice and noodles each meal :)

jo.irish.rose said...

Oh chi chi.... I'm so sorry your going thru all that, you poor lil thing!!! I will be praying all goes well! I know the BIG GUY!!! lol I had a stress test several times, it's not that bad, I had been having chest pains and palpitations, so I went to get it checked out. It turned out to be anxiety!! And worrying just made it worse! Lol so now I take a medicine to slow my heart rate down, it was going to fast, causing the palpitations, but I am much better. We also have heart problems in the whole family and our dad died at 56. But we all get checked regularly and take good care of ourselves and Chris and my brother Dennis so far are the
only ones with problems.....knocking on wood. Lol

Well, sweetie, don't be nervous....don't drink caffeine, and make sure and get lots of rest the couple of nights before, it helps. Bless your lil heart.....LITERALLY!!!! xxxxxx ooooo

Clippy Mat said...

Wow, if you didn't have stress after all those years of doing what you were doing, it would be a miracle!! slow down and hug a ...
penguin? good luck on saturday. take care of yourself.
:-))

SassyModernMom said...

Oh sweetie! So important to take care of your self. Keep thinking those positive thoughts and I will start sending the good vibes your way right now!

Busy Bee Suz said...

Please, don't stress over the test. (that would be too ironic!) Worrying about it, will make it all the harder.
Sending you good vibes and prayers.
I know you are an absolutely awesome Mom...YOU are MY HERO!!! You've done it alone, with grace, humor and tons of love for that young man.
xoxo

otin said...

I'm praying that you are okay!

Change for Good said...

I just wanted to comment on you being a mother first, and a teacher second.

I had a really bad first grade teacher....like cry every single day bad. I was in the building where my mom taught, and would usually be crying by the time I reached her room. She met with my dad and the principal concerning this witch woman...the principal was putting my mom down for not supporting the teacher, and she said the same thing you said. Stud will really remember that you always put him first