Sunday, February 6, 2011

Weird update?

I know I haven't mentioned BH since I left you hanging here. That was Jan. 23. The next day, I sent him a response that basically said I'm sorry I bothered him, and I NEVER would have sought him out had I have known he was still married. I know, I know, lame, right? My inner 17 year-old was still in control then. Sue me! I told him I didn't want to cause any problems for him with his wife, and I told him, given the circumstances, I had no plans to use the cell phone number he sent me.

The next day, I got the sweetest reply from him:
Hi L, There is no reason to fell bad. I have a lot of friends
that are woman and I talk to them often
We are lucky that where still here to be talking and still
friends. I was glad to find you. So there are no worries. I
prefer to talk instead of e-mail because I still can't spell
:-) It would be nice to see you and Janie says hi.

Hope you have a great day.
Your friend B

About a minute later he sent this:
See told you I can't spell. Even the spell check can't
figure it out.

Janie is his sister. She and I were very close in high school. It kind of made me smile that he actually mentioned to her that we had touched base with each other.

I'm embarrassed to say I never replied to those emails. I didn't really know what to say. "Yeah, I would love to see you, too. I can tell you all about how I had our future together all planned out." Not so much....

And, yes, I'm fully aware of the fact that we could just reconnect, get to know each other again, and resume our awesome friendship. You can never have too many friends, right? Except, that pesky 17 year-old doesn't want any more friends. She wants him to be her boyfriend!! God, she's annoying!

Like I said, I haven't replied, and I didn't get any more messages from him. I was just about ready to close that door, when what pops up my inbox today? Another message from Classmates saying, "BH stopped by yesterday. Open your Classmates guestbook." What the hell? What was he looking for? Did he think something changed there in the past two weeks? Did he think maybe I left him a message there? What? Why did he go there again?

Am I just a big whiny baby for not wanting to be his friend? Ok, you don't have to answer that, I already know the answer. I'm just not ready to do anything about it yet. The 'Valentine Season' isn't helping things, either. It tends to bring out my inner child. Oh, who am I kidding? It bring out the lonely, bitter, middle-aged woman in me! I hope I can grow up, and get past this someday soon. I really would like to be friends with him again. I just don't think I can do it today.

3 comments:

C said...

no you are NOT a whiny baby for wanting more than friendship cuz you LIKE him alot.. if you dont think you can just be friends then to save your heart it might be best to let it all go. but if you think you can separate the woman from the girl and not be hurt cuz all you can think about is wanting more with him, then go there.
you have been hurt enuff in your life, you dont need more of it. but you need to be comfortable with your decision. hugs...

C said...

ps

he sure as HELL can't SPELL!!!! hahahaha

Busy Bee Suz said...

You are going to move on...cause you are smart like that. :)
Valentines day is overrated. Forizzle!