...they pull me back in.
For a while now, I've been reading Jody's blog, Littlest Learners/Clutter-free Classroom. She's been on my teacher list for quite some time. I love to see how she runs her ship, and she has such great ideas. Although sometimes, (and I mean absolutely NO offense here, Jody, if you're reading this!!) I find myself talking to my computer, and saying mean things like, "Yeah, right! Who the hell has the time to do that!?" or "Do you know how long that would last in MY classroom? About 2 minutes, before one of my monsters destroys it." Or, even worse, "Hell, I'VE been doing that for years already!" I know, bitchy, right? Truth is, I'm a little in awe of Jody, and teacher like her, because they're who I USED to be, before the Hell-Hole killed my spirit.
I promise, this isn't going to be a bitch-fest about the Hell-Hole. I just wanted to share with you that, as I was reading through my blog lists this afternoon, I got to Littlest Learners, and read today's announcement about Jody starting a 'new' blog. I clicked over and found this:
Go, check it out, I'll wait.
Naturally, I clicked on the video, and read all the posts (although some of them I had already read when she posted them on her other blog) and it happened. I started crying. Yep, crying.
I don't want to leave teaching!!!! I say I do, but I really don't. I just can't keep doing it where and how I have been for well over a decade now. I need to get back to my roots, to the whole reason I became a teacher, the reason I KNEW in Kindergarten that I wanted to be a teacher. I'm not saying that's gonna happen, as there is a serious shortage of teaching positions here, but I can't see myself walking away, either. However, I know one thing for damn sure - I'm walking away from the Hell-Hole, and I'm not looking back.
I know I missed a couple of posts this weekend, so I guess I REALLY blew NaBloPoMo, huh? Oh well, I'll get over it. I was far too busy enjoying the hell out of my long weekend! It's gonna make it that much harder to go to work tomorrow. ~sigh~