Thursday, May 5, 2011
What is the hardest decision you ever had to make?
Wow, this is a hard one. There have been SO many difficult decisions I've had to make in my life. I'm going to go with my initial gut reaction/answer, which is - throwing CSJ out. Stud Muffin wasn't even 2 years old, we had just bought this house, which meant a $1,200 a month mortgage, and I had just quit my job!!! What the hell was I thinking? Well, I was thinking, "This bastard has to go!"
But, I didn't know how I was going to keep a roof over my and my baby's heads. So much for the game plan I had all worked out. After Stud was born, we agreed I would go back to work, but only long enough to save up a decent down payment for a house. Then, I was going to be able to stay home with my baby. Yeah...not so much... I got to be home for about 3 weeks before the shit hit the fan.
I don't want to dwell on the negative here, especially since things have taken an interesting turn with CSJ in the past year or so. Besides, I haven't done too bad for myself the past 16 years. I managed to keep this roof over our heads (in addition to several remodeling projects), put myself through grad school (1 1/2 times!), put my son through 3 years of private school, and despite how much I bitch and moan about it, I have a respectable career. And, I did it all by my big self!
So, despite it being one of my hardest decisions, it was definitely the right one.
Today was a very long day. I just got home from 6 hours at Bestest Friend's sister's wake. Tomorrow is going to be very difficult, as most funerals are, and I'm a little worried about my Bestest Friend. With that in mind, I'd better get myself to bed, so I have plenty of strength and energy to help her through this difficult day.