Oh my God...

...oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, oh my God.....

That's all that's going through my head right now. Very early this morning, when I was watching the news, I heard a news report of an off-duty officer that was shot. He was sitting in his car with a woman, who was killed. My first thought was, they were having an affair, and either his wife or her husband shot them. (Yes, I still have some serious issues, I know) Well, flash forward to this afternoon. A friend of mine, who is also a Chicago cop, had been trying to call me all day to let me know that the cop that was shot was my ex's former partner. He was his first partner when he got on the job, and they've remained friends ever since, even though my ex is no longer on the job. I, also, stayed in touch with him, and considered him a friend. Which is why my other friend was calling me. He wasn't sure if CSJ had heard, since he didn't really know if they were still in touch. I got a few more details from my friend about what happened, and I knew that my other friend was in critical condition.

Well, I tried calling CSJ several times today (all morning for another reason, then this afternoon about this) He finally called me back. When I said, "I assume you heard about Bob by now," he says, "Bob is brain dead. It's just a matter of pulling the plug. I've been here at the hospital since 5:00 this morning." I absolutely lost it. I'm still losing it. I can't stop crying. I loved this man. I'm too upset to get into the nitty gritty of our past, but he's always been a good man to me and my son, and I'm going to miss him so much. I need to go cry some more, but I'll leave you with this news report from our local ABC station from this afternoon. Please, say a prayer for his family.
http://abclocal.go.com/wls/story?section=news/local&id=6324202